My Guide to Emotional Women for Men Who Don’t Pick Up On Things

• When a woman gives a direct statement such as “Clean the fridge” by all means go ahead and clean the fridge.
• When a woman gives a statement with a ADDITIVE  such as “Sure, fine, go ahead and go out, do whatever you want” DO NOT do it.
• Any statements such as the second are a trap. If you go ahead and do it, be aware that pain will follow.
• Never give up on the first “Nothing”
• If something seems wrong with a Woman then something is wrong.
• She will never tell you whats wrong until the third or forth “Nothing”
•  Never say a woman is “mad” when she is crying.
• They are hurt, probably by something you have done.
• Nothing makes a woman look fat.
• If you accuse a woman of being “mad” when she is sad she will get mad. AT YOU
• Learn what pads/tampons she uses. She will make you buy her some as a test. Getting the wrong kind will end in war.
• Everything is a test.
• Nothing is a test.
• Learn her favorite foods.
• She will test you on that.
• Never say that you wish her hair was longer.
• Hair can be cut quickly, but growing it out takes forever. Saying you wish it was longer will only make her think you hate her hair, which will make her hate her hair, until it grows out, which will take forever, until it grows out she will hate you.
• Never try to talk to her while she’s reading.
• Talk to her while you’re reading.
• For every horror/fighting movie you make her watch she will make you watch 3 romance/chick flick movies
• Be ok with that.
• Like everything she posts on Facebook
• Like all her Tweets that were posted to Facebook through Twitter.
• Heart all her Instagram photos.
• Forget all the things you just read.
• Then reread them.
• Remember them forever.
• There will be a test on this.

Ha, Bitch, please!

That’s all I gotta say on that. I think it’s so funny!

Now I got that out.

I had a really nice night the other day. I went to another bonfire. And there was also a 1 day old baby chick with narcolepsy. And a mini cook out/grill type thing. I like hotdogs better grilled than boiled or microwaved. And there was also a blanket under the stars. Sitting on old snow mobiles and joking about anything that came to mind. It was a really nice night.

But still I’m not happy. The gruff is chipping away but still to much for me. Plus some other things that knock it back. But, I guess friends are nice too.

Oh my gosh! My Puff broke yesterday and I went to the tobacco store to get another one. And they were out of the part I need. And I had asked the woman there(who I’ve never really liked) if she knew if they would be getting any more there soon. And she shot back “I don’t know everything, what do I look like, a newspaper?”. Well, never going back there again. Bitch. So I had to drive two towns over to get a part. And they had a Puff flavor I never had before! Its blue raspberry. Oh la la. It tastes so good!

Oh and girl scouts is draining my wallet! Lol. I have had to pay so much on everything. But Brats grades have been all A B honor roll so I let her pick one extra curricular activity and she chose girl scouts. We are going to a princess party Friday. Part of her troop duty. Lol, and I got her a really pretty dress. She’s super excited. I guess I am too, lol.

See You Later Space Cowboy…

Blow Me One Last… FUCK OFF

You think you can come here, to my house and be a shitty little dick, you make me sick, to look at you, to think of you.

i’m glad this was the last good bye, no more crying. tears wasted over you. too much trouble, too much baggage,  not worth the hassle.

you think i care? oh you dare think i could ever be torn up over something so little, so much strife. That’s your life, not mine. I’m gonna be fine,

now that you’re not here.

There’s always guys better than you, so far i know of 2, just to name a few. It was time, i flew,

now i’m over this, you’re such a bitch. the fact that you’re still breathing lies makes me pissed. again i’m sick of this.

Do me a favor, dont save any thought about me for later, say out loud now and let that be that,

After this you’re just pixels on a screen. No thought, no nothing. Thats how it should be.

This is your last post, enjoy it, after this there’s no more.

that’s it, i’m done, and you’re gone,

i’m finally happy.

What am i feeling?

Can some one tell me?

I really dont know.

After Beast sounding like i was the last person in the world he wanted to even talk to even before i told him to come get his stuff i knew, we were not ever going to work out.

It really just leaves me setting just here.

I wanna cut and bleach my hair.

I want to scream.

I want some one to take a hard paddle to my ass so hard it makes me cry.

Because i think that would be the only way i would be able to cry. I dont feel sad. Maybe i had a sad thought, just a thought when i turned on my phone and saw the picture of me and him as my lock screen. I changed it. Feeling gone. Now i just feel like i really want a good beating. No sex. Just the hard hit of a paddle across me, anywhere. Just so i’d be forced to cry. I could listen to a couple of songs, maybe get a few tears out, but it’ll be hard. I’ll probably miss him tomorrow when i’m setting here, but not now. I’m so fucking sick of all of his bullshit. He didn’t even know i was mad and done today and just me talking to him pissed him off. Really?? Who the fuck does that? I was sick of him, he was most defiantly sick of me.

I dont have anyone that i can tell exactly what i’m feeling. my feelings would hurt feelings. if that makes any since.

And again my birthday is gonna suck this year.

Monogamous and Polyamorous

might piss some people off. but just remember, everyone has their own views on every single thing in the world and 9 times outta 10 you can not change it.

Just read something on fetlife. it really made me say, out loud “Well thats what you get for fucking other people.” yeah it was mean and most likely needed to go un said. but i said it. i hate guys that are in a mono relationship for ever and then wanna go poly. it’s like, then just break up with her. and dont get me wrong women do it to. but this guy had been married to his wife for 10 years, mono with her the whole time, i’m guessing. i use to know this guy but with all the shit he’s been doing i really dont know. then he wanted a poly relationship, and then got a std right off the bat. 

i kinda find it as a karma thing. if he would have been just with his wife, never would have gotten it.

being mono i don’t like the idea of poly at all. i dont even like the idea of threesomes. if you wanna fuck that girl over there, then obviously she’s got something you really want that i aint giving you, so go ahead, just know i aint gonna be here when you get back. even if you say it’s ok if i fuck that guy over there while ya do it it still aint fine with me. if i wanted that guy over there then i’d be in a relationship with him, not you. 

from what I’ve seen and read and everything in the bdsm world, it you’re not poly then something is wrong with you. and that fucking sucks. i dont want a poly relationship because i just couldn’t handle the guy i’m with giving the love i should be getting to another girl. it just aint gonna happen with me.

I’ve even seen the guy i’m talking about post things like “i love my girlfriend” and i see that and i feel sorry for his wife. how does she feel seeing that shit? stuff like that should be saying “i love my wife”. 

and this whole poly with a dont ask dont tell thing is even worse, you are giving him permission to cheat on you. you just dont want to know the details. AND espesialy if you dont know anything thats going on in the first place. then honey, he was CHEATING on you, there is no such thing as being secretly poly in a relationship. if you find out he has another girl, without you guys talking about it, and he’s like, oh i’m poly, now ya know, it’s just him being a fucking asshole. 

it just pisses me off. 

Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, WordPress

if you have words or tags like this in your blog your webs hits will skyrocket, for like a day. I got 37 views in one day from doing this, aside from my regular 17. I’ve been working and suches, i’ve been so busy i forget to blog. lol. couple of things i wanna say before i go make dinner.

This is what cools me down after getting pissed off. i like to blog. people may not read or like my blog, but it’s mine. say what i want. lol. and i am hoping to have some sexy dish for you guys after tomorrow night, yay yay yay, sexes for me!! lol, it’s pretty much a given when Beast is over.

ok, so remind me to talk about CC when i have some time, i have a rant that need ranting.

But dinner needs made, will blog later!

Seems like our song….

Sometimes I hate every single stupid word you say
Sometimes I wanna slap you in your whole face
There’s no one quite like you
You push all my buttons down
I know life would suck without you

At the same time, I wanna hug you
I wanna wrap my hands around your neck
You’re an asshole but I love you
And you make me so mad I ask myself
Why I’m still here, or where could I go
You’re the only love I’ve ever known
But I hate you, I really hate you,
So much, I think it must be

True love, true love
It must be true love
Nothing else can break my heart like
True love, true love,
It must be true love
No one else can break my heart like you

Just once try to wrap your little brain around my feelings
Just once please try not to be so mean
Repeat after me now R-O-M-A-N-C-E-E-E
Come on I’ll say it slowly
You can do it babe

At the same time, I wanna hug you
I wanna wrap my hands around your neck
You’re an asshole but I love you
And you make me so mad I ask myself
Why I’m still here, or where could I go
You’re the only love I’ve ever known
But I hate you, I really hate you,
So much, I think it must be

True love, true love
It must be true love
Nothing else can break my heart like
True love, true love,
It must be true love
No one else can break my heart like you

I think it must be love

Why do you rub me off the wrong way?
Why do you say the things that you say?
Sometimes I wonder how we ever came to be
But without you I’m incomplete

I think it must be
True love, true love
It must be true love
Nothing else can break my heart like
True love, true love,
It must be true love
No one else can break my heart like you
No one else can break my heart like you (like you)
No one else can break my heart like you

But, Beast, i wouldn’t have it any other way. Well, maybe a couple little changes, lol. But one thing i hate is that when we have a fight or you’re having a bad day, to you, the world seems to stop spinning and everything seems to be burning down around you. Ya gotta stop, jut stop. Yeah i get pissed. so do you. but just shutting down or shutting people out is not a good thing to do. Try being nice, try just stopping and saying “hey, i know we’re pissed, but i do love you, and we’ll get through this.” it’s simple. i should have done that this morning. And i’m sorry. Just kinda mad i only got one message in a hour and a half. but i know you’ll message me tonight and i’ll be all happy again. it kinda sucks being such a sub to you. it really sucks knowing i’m sub to you in more than just the bedroom. -_- sigh……… oh well. can’t help how i feel.

Why??? Why do i do this???

Fighting, i’m drawn to it. if i have time left alone to think it’s like a dark cloud starts forming over me. with each thought it gets bigger and bigger and darker. So do my thoughts. I no longer feel warm, or cuddled, or even really here. i just kinda feel like Adam sandler in click, like i’m on auto pilot but the auto pilot is fighting everyone. 

A rose will wilt if you do not water it.

I have things I need to be doing around the house. But I just can’t seem to get the motivation to any of it. It seems like it’s an ongoing battle and my house seems to be winning.

I don’t have friends to take my mind off anything. Sir doesn’t count. He’s one of the things I need to get off my mind. Clingy sucks. He has friends and brothers. Other people to be around with. I have a 2year-old and a 8year-old. Lol love them with all my heart but conversations with them suck. Especially with the 2 year-old.

No phone right now to reach out to people. And people ignore yahoo 90% of the time.

*sigh* I’m just in a funk right now. Sir is having a better day and I can’t be a part of it. Doesn’t seem fair that I got Sir So Grumpy and other people get Sir So Ok. I want Sir So Happy. Lol.

The 2 year old is going in my closet and shutting the door. It makes me do that whole head shaking thing.

I went to play hair dresser today at my grandmother’s house today. I like doing hair but sometimes I wish I didn’t have to. I went through school for it. Did good there. Graduated with honors. But I just couldn’t get into a job of it here. I was always the black sheep in hair salons. I’m the black sheep anywhere. Guess that’s why I don’t have friends, lol.

Well this blog is cheerful.

See You Later Space Cowboy…